home is where the heart is

how often does this phrase pop up in life: home is where the heart is.... often, i know. i feel like in my mom's kitchen there are at least three different magnets hanging on the frig with that exact phrase.

i was home this past weekend, just for the day on saturday, and it was so great. i was having so much fun with my family, and with my two close friends. it made me really miss being in Columbus, a lot. so much that the entire way home on saturday night i was wondering what life would be like if i lived in Columbus again. dreaming, wishing... hoping. praying for God to reveal His will. but then, as i was approaching BG on 75, i came around a slight bend. it's the spot of 75 that i love the most, because once you get to that bend the city of Bowling Green's water tower (one of six in this town) is finally revealed, and my first thought is always: "ahh, yes. i'm home."

and in that moment, i realized that my heart was literally torn in two pieces in regards to where my home is, Columbus and Bowling Green. this has never happened. i feel like when i made the switch in my heart from Columbus being my home to BG being my home, it was clear and concise, there wasn't any confusion. but now, i feel like i'm back peddling and longing for the home and comfort that Columbus offers me.

for so long BG has been the "safe zone" for me. i feel safe here because i know this place, i have friends here, my church is here, i have a job here, there's security in my life here in BG. if i ever moved back to Columbus, i would have to recreate my life down there, start over, start fresh.... i'm not sure that's an adventure i really want to do alone, as a single woman. and the idea of it all scares me.

i know i'm in BG for another two years, and i am happy and thankful for that. but what happens at the end of Grad School, at the end of two years... when life is there knocking again, and giving me a much needed reality check. hmm... i think i am really learning to appreciate why the Lord keeps most things a secret from us until the perfect time for us to know. it's because it's people like me who over think things, and just want to get it all figured out right away. and, where would the faith be in that?

my heart belongs to the Lord. home is where the heart is... if i'm going to find home, then i need to look at Christ first, and then i will find where i need to be and what i should be looking for. i encourage you to do the same, in case you're looking for your home.

Re: Mail Returned Undeliverable.

do you ever wish God had an email address? where you could just write in a quick prayer, and then wait for him to write back... sometimes i wonder what it would be like if he had an auto-reply for whenever he was on vacation. then, while i'm having these thoughts i'm reminded of the movie Bruce Almighty. the scene where Jim Carey (who is playing the role of God) is sitting in front of a computer, and he decides to make all of his prayers being received come in through email, and the inbox just keeps growing and growing with more and more prayers. if you haven't seen it, i suggest at least getting on youtube.com and checking out that scene.

i really think that that scene is such a great illustration of prayer life for God's creation. often we just throw up a small prayer here and there, or even big ones and we ask for things that seem to be unattainable. story of my life sometimes.

well, today i decided to try it.... you know the whole emailing God thing. so once i finished my prayer and was prepared to hit send, i fumbled upon a stumbling block. would God have a yahoo account or a gmail account? gmail... definitely gmail. it's the trendy thing. so i'm assuming God's email would be god@gmail.com.... so then i hit send.

within 30 seconds i had an inbox that held the subject line Re: Mail Returned Undeliverable and in the body of the email it read, "User god@gmail.com was not found, or does not exist." well, isn't that interesting. it's a good thing that i put my faith in the Almighty and not technology, otherwise i'd be lost.

what was sweet about my little test this afternoon, would be that even though i'm pretty stinking sure the Lord does not have an email (God-if you want to prove me wrong that would be SOO COOOL!), i know that he still received my prayer in his inbox.

what emails are you sending to God today?

ahhh, i'm back. :)

hello friends.

it's been awhile, and i take full responsibility for that, my apologies. life got kind of crazy there for awhile, well it still is kind of crazy. but i don't think that i would want it any other way right now. i enjoy the controlled chaos and whirlwind of life i've been tossed into, i enjoy it a lot actually.

i'm working, a lot. between my job at the agency and my position through brookside now, i dare say i have quite a full load. i'm still working at trying to manage the two jobs. some days are easier than others.

one of my dearest friends got married this past week, it was such a beautiful wedding! i cried a lot, which is normal i feel like, you know? well normal for me at least. it was such a breathtaking ceremony, full of so much love and fun, which is exactly who Danny and Kerry are, it was perfect. the reception was a blast, honestly one of the most fun receptions i've been to in awhile. it was like having a big party with all of my best friends, and i loved it. i can't wait to hang out with Ker too, so see how much she enjoyed it! i am so incredibly blessed to have the Stoots' in my life, such sweet friends they have been to me.

something i realized earlier this week was that i am not doing a good enough job at asking for people to pray for me, and sharing my prayer requests with people, and that is something that i need to be more willing to share and be vulnerable with. which is why, i've decided that from here on out, i am going to end each of my blog entries with a prayer request.

i assume that if you care enough about my life to check out my blog, then you probably wouldn't mind lifting me up in prayer for a brief moment either. i hope that by me doing this, i am also encouraging you to share your prayer requests with other people in your life as well, and i of course would be more than willing and would love to bless you by talking about your requests with God.

so here we go...

PR: my time. i'm trying to learn the best possible method at managing my time with all of the different hats that i am wearing right now. i need time to be on my side, and not the opposite. please pray that i am able to find a groove (and soon) that i can put into practice before this fall comes, and Grad school begins.

thanks friend. :)